Thursday, August 2, 2012

Last Blog

Every time I write, it seems to be a little bit harder to do so.  The news just seems to be worse, and yesterday I found out I probably only have about a week left.

So this will probably be it for my blogging career. You will hear from Michael or Angie when I am gone. I won't be able to respond to any posts or emails.  I don't have the energy any more. 

Today I have to say goodbye to my kids and that will be one of the hardest things I have to do in my life.

Don't let activity escape, there is so much living still to be done. Don't let that bucket grow rusty. Keep it shining bright by continuing to use it.

Thanks to you all for being my village. For being strong when I am weak. For listening. For allowing me to grow and become a stronger person.

Don't forget who you are, do what you love and love what you do.

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" - Ralph Waldo Emerson

42 comments:

  1. Tina your village loves you and will always love you. -Laura

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  2. You are an amazing woman Tina - Find comfort and peace

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  3. OH Tina,

    Please remember that you have inspired so many many people through your blog. Please remind your kids that you will always be watching and with them from the other side. I cant imagine having to talk to them today but you have demonstrated your strength, courage and spirit all through this journey. Please go in peace.

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  4. Tina,
    I don't even know what to say.....you have inspired me, made me laugh, and educated me so much through your blog. I start my day reading your words and praying for you. I hope and pray you find comfort and peace as you start your next journey. I will miss you deeply and think of you often.
    Hugs, prayers, love & admiration,
    Bridget

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  5. Tina,

    I have been waiting for a blog from you, hoping to hear a different news. I don't know what to say. You have given me a new insight to life, to live it to the fullest each and every day. To do the things you want to do now, and not wait for a rainy day.
    I hope you find comfort and peace in the coming days, and know that your village will be thinking of you often, I know when I am sitting in my hot tub out back I will be wondering which star you are as I look into the night sky...

    A massive hug comes from my house to yours...
    Debbie M

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  6. Tina, I told you a couple of years ago that the first thing I did each morning was check my email for my son Neil's message and then your blog. You have been a huge support to me, your strenght has always amazed me and continues to do so. You are leaving a truely awesome legacy for Michael, Noah & Tara and your whoel village. Peace be with you.
    Lillian

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  7. Tina, I didnt thought 4 years ago as we left canada that we wont see YOU anymore, don´t give you a hug personaly and share chocolate with you. You will allways be in my mind.
    And I remember as it was yesterday, as we met the first time.
    You and Michael took me to Toronto, Canadas Wonderland and last but not least to a wonderfull horsebackriding tour. And I remember that your horse was pregnant and it came hardly out of the pond we where riding through and you and Mike where giggle about this fact.

    You will leave a big gap in our life and no one can fill it out. Hope you will find peace on the place you gona go. And I believe you can watch from heaven your amazing children and also Mike. Only God knows when we will meet again up there. Until then I send you the biggest Hug ever over the "big pond".
    Love You
    Renate

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  8. I will see you this afternoon, my sweet friend. I love you with all my heart and soul. I pray that as this journey ends, your new journey will be peaceful and pain-free.

    Rachna

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  9. May God wrap his arms around you and comfort you into his home.

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  10. Tina ,
    Peace be with you.
    Gerður from Iceland

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  11. Yours is a light that will never fade.

    Much love and peace, until we meet again...

    Jen

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  12. God speed Tina, we are all just right behind you!

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  13. Today I am lighting a candle for you and I will be thinking of you and your family. I will remember the happy times we shared as young women, learning about life, love and the cp style guide. I wish you well my friend and know that around the world and close by, your 'village' is with you. xx Michelle

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  14. Tina
    God brought you back into my life for a reason. I just wish this wasn't the reason. Love you
    Rhonda.

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  15. You have inspired so many people with your story. For those of us who don't know you, we will miss you so it's hard to fathom just how much you will be missed by those who have been lucky enough to know you. I wish you a peaceful journey filled with you knowing how much you are loved. Thank you for sharing yourself with us all.
    Sincerely, Lynn

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  16. Tina,
    I would check your blog daily when my children would give me a chance, I am happy to hear from you - but sad at the same time. I can't imagine Tina how it can be for you to say goodbye to your children but at least God has granted you with an opportunity. How many people die without one? Before I was put on life support ( my lungs were giving out bc of chemo) I had to sign the darn permission form. I told the doctor- "wait, what if I never get of this thing, I need to say goodbye to my children" but for me that wasn't an option. I didn't get to say goodbye to them. Sadly I signed it and by the grace of God I overcame and was able to get off the ventilator a week later. But I was scared Tina and torn because I remembered their little faces. So even though its probably one of the hardest things to do as a mother I can tell you at least you have the chance.

    God bless you and your family Tina. I pray the Lord always watches over them and keeps the safe. Blessings on your new journey.

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  17. My thoughts are with you and your family Tina.

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  18. Peace and God's love. You inspire me.

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  19. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Lina

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  20. Tina, may peace and love light your way. You will be missed and never forgotten.
    Kelly

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  21. Tina, Mike, Noah and Tara
    So very sorry to learn how things are working out. Our hearts go out to all of you. Tina you are a very stong women, you always have been. We are very blessed that we had the chance to get to know both of you. I still remember the exact moment that Mike told me you were expecting Tara. To think all of us "neighbourhood girls" pregnant and expecting only weeks apart.
    Our hearts are full of sorrow,but our thoughts are full of love. God Bless you and your loved ones. Your all in our thoughts and prayers.

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  22. I wish you all the energy you need to embrace the next phase of your journey
    J

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  23. Until we meet again my friend. I am so blessed to have been able to call you my friend and my life is better for having known you. I wish you peace and strength through your journey. Love Dorothy

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  24. Tina I love you so much. Gerry and I wish you a peacefull journey. I am a bettter person for having you in my life.
    Jacqueline Ross.

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  25. Because of Christ and our faith in him, we can now come fearlessly into God's presence, assured of his glad welcome.
    Ephesians 3:12 NLT

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  26. This will not be your last one. There will be Tina 'blogs' in the smell of the sunshine as I ride Oreo down the little hill into the park. There will be blogs when I flush a turkey up from the grass. There will be blogs when I see a couple in love holding hands. You will never cease to be an inspiration about living life to the fullest.

    I wish you love and peace as you continue your journey. My friend's horse, Iniscaro, is waiting to take you on the most wonderful trail ride when you see him.

    Rhonda

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  27. God bless you, Tina. You have touched my heart deeply and I will miss you. You have been a wonderful role model for me and I will not forget you or what you taught me.

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  28. for God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth on Him should not perish but have everlasting life.Trust Jesus Tina. He will bring you home

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  29. The world is better because you were here.
    Peace and Love, Jaime

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  30. Hey guys, this is Cassie I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you. I just wanted to say thank you for the opportunity to get to know you and your family. I have many fond memories of the times spent in the backyard playing with Noah, especially that swing set. Tina you are an amazing mother, a great friend and an all around good person.

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  31. The angels will be here to carry you to the next phase of your journey. Take in their Light and Love that they will bestow upon you, as they bring you home to all who are waiting for your arrival. There will also be a realm of angels that will stay nearby with your loved ones to comfort them as well. Your Light will always shine and be ever present whenever called for. May your passing be a gentle one Tina.
    Love and Light...Paula B

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  32. Tears are in my eyes as I read your blog. May God give you the strength to say good-bye peacefully to everyone and everything that you love about this world.
    Hold on to your faith. God and the angels are with you, and will gently guide you on to the next journey. Some day we will all be with you too.

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  33. Aww genuinely gutted to read this... You're an inspiration and a hero! May God give you strength and peace and carry you across that finish line. You are an amazing, amazing lady - your words and thoughts have changed my life. Big love, Caz x x

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  34. From fear to joy...

    By Dr. Jim Kok, Crystal Cathedral Pastor

    "And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."
    -Psalm 23:6

    Anna asked to see me in her waning hours. Lung cancer was shortening her life radically at a young age. She was only 47 years old, and a hard-working single mother. That day she was having difficulty breathing.

    "I'm in so much pain," said Anna, tears welling up in her eyes. "I can't keep my mind on Jesus. I'm afraid I can't hang on to God and that scares me. I feel so weak and I'm thinking about my children and feeling so troubled. I'm afraid I won't have enough faith to go to heaven!"

    I mostly listened as she shared a few more thoughts. Then I realized she was tiring and needed to hear from me. "Anna," I said slowly, holding her hand in mine, "God holds on to you. You do not have to hold on to God." I paused and waited for the words to sink in. "God will never leave you or forsake you. Please relax and let that promise embrace and comfort you." Then I prayed slowly, emphasizing those truths, hoping those words would saturate her soul with confidence and security, transforming her fear to joy.

    As I comforted her, Anna's face softened and a slight but incredulous smile appeared on her lips. Something enormous had changed in her. With tears of joy she said, "That is so good! I have never heard such promises. Thank you. Thank you." Then she closed her eyes and peacefully went to sleep knowing that she no longer needed to be afraid. God would take care of her family, and soon he would lift her in his strong arms and deliver her from this world into heaven...a beautiful place where she would "dwell in the house of the Lord forever."

    Prayer: Thank you, Lord, for the promise of eternity with you. Even when my strength is gone and my faith is weak, I know that you will not forsake me. You will hold on to me and keep me by your side forever. Amen.

    Reflection: Have you ever felt like Anna, that your relationship with God was entirely up to you? How does it feel knowing that God holds on to you even when you're feeling far from him? How do you picture yourself in eternity with the Lord?

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  35. I am married to Ross, Georgia's son. I don't think we have met, but I found out through Georgia, about your illness. I hope you will read this, but then I think you need your strength for more important things right now. I read some of your blog and it immediately brought tears to my eyes. I wish to send my thoughts to you and your family. It must hurt right now, more than anything imaginable. To think I haven't ever met you, nor will I ever meet you, but because we are connected by family, it brought your story to me and I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry you are going through this. My thoughts are with you and your family. x

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  36. Tina,
    I am blessed to have "known" you. Sending love.

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  37. Peace. Thank you so much for your work and sharing.

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  38. Your powerful words will remain with us, always. Godspeed, Tina.

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  39. I will think of you often for the rest of my days Tina. You are an inspiration to many! God Bless my friend xoxo

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