Today is going to be a tough day; a day of waiting. I was able to mostly distract myself on the weekend with friends, canasta, Carling, food and music. It was great. But today, I work and and I'm going to have trouble concentrating because of my worried mind.
I get the results of the CT scan tomorrow. I'm fearful the cancer is back (or I have an infection) due to some of the symptoms I'm experiencing. Twinges of occasional pain have turned into a pressure in my lower abdomen and I feel a burning sensation in my pubic region. Sometimes, I also feel bloated.
The problem with ovarian cancer - and why they call it the disease that whispers - is the symptoms are so subtle and could be attributed to other diagnoses.
So I wait for the verdict tomorrow. Then I'll either dance for joy (and seek antibiotics for my infection) or go into fight mode. Let's pray it's the former. Now isn't that ironic, I'm hoping for an infection.
I know my village is also on pins and needles today, just waiting for the opportunity to dance. And for that I'm thankful.
Tina
toast:
ReplyDeleteto Tuesday that it brings good news for you and for Pete
to health
to pajamas
for everyone who wasn't there (at the spa) this past weekend, these were the three toasts for the weekend. These were the three most important things for Sat and Sunday,,,
good news, good health and good friends (ie pajamas).
Tina, we all stand behind you, we are all afraid, but like we discussed yesterday, it's a fight you must do alone, but we are all here to support and help in anyway possible should the news not be good... HOWEVER,,, the news will be good, and we will all do the dance of joy whether it be in our offices, our homes, or wherever we will receive the news of your CT scan tomorrow...
one day, one more day.... breathe....
xoxo