I wonder

I know it's only been 10 days since my abdomen was subjected to the scalpel, but I wonder how long it will take before I feel semi-normal. My wound is healing nicely and I get the staples removed on Tuesday. I know I'm going to have one doozy of a scar, but c'est la vie.

I know the doctor ripped through my stomach muscles so my arms and legs get a good workout every time I something. But when will I feel comfortable lying in bed again? When will it not be a coordinated series of movements to get into bed? Sitting isn't too bad, as long as it's the right kind of chair. But I reposition my sore butt a lot.

My gut doesn't like me too much right now either. It hasn't felt right since the surgery. Of course, it's been subjected to ingesting pain and anti-nausea medication, as well as stool softeners and laxatives. Then my internal organs suffered the indignity of an open cavity, with doctors touching them.

For such a big organ, the bowel is really a big baby. It acts up at the slightest provocation - spicy food, too much alcohol, too much grease, not enough fibre, etc. Mine's reacted to recent events by swinging from one extreme reaction to the other.

I know it hasn't been long since my surgery and today I feel better than yesterday, but still I wonder how long it will be. I will try to be gentle to my body today and give it good food to help it recover. And I remind myself of my mantra of one day at a time.

Enjoy your sunny Saturday.
Tina